Slept nine hours last night, and had a wonderful dream.
Continued from tonyperezphilippinescyberspacebook36.blogspot.com.
Wednesday, February 28, 2018
After a party in your house, do not clear away things immediately. Go round the house and sit in different chairs to access what each guest was thinking and feeling. Review the moments of joy that transpired. The house fairies will be there with you.
This is a host's proper closure for a house party.
This is a host's proper closure for a house party.
Tuesday, February 27, 2018
Angelique and Aubrey now have two, bare, Pandora charm bracelets. They'll be starting to collect charms. First off, I'm buying them two owl charms, representing Grandpa, two tree-of-life charms representing their Papa, and two orchid charms representing their Mama. The rest, they will have to collect over the years to record their personal histories.
Monday, February 26, 2018
Sunday, February 25, 2018
Took my oil paint tubes out of my wooden paint box and segregated them by color in empty, chocolate candy tins. It's easier for me to determine what I am running out of and should replenish.
I now have tins for:
--Browns
--Reds and Oranges
--Blues
--Greens
--Yellows
--Blacks
--Whites
--Violets
The Eng Bee Tin mooncake tins are quite stable, stackable, and easily labeled, and so I'll eventually buy more of those.
I now have tins for:
--Browns
--Reds and Oranges
--Blues
--Greens
--Yellows
--Blacks
--Whites
--Violets
The Eng Bee Tin mooncake tins are quite stable, stackable, and easily labeled, and so I'll eventually buy more of those.
Saturday, February 24, 2018
A criminal will defend his accomplice no matter what, a gang member will defend his co-member no matter what, and a fraternity member will defend his brothers no matter what, but a gay person is not obliged to defend another gay person if that other gay person is an atchay, is wrong, must be corrected, or deserves to be criticized.
Went to the Sitio Catacutan hawkers' center. TV sets were on the news, featuring live broadcasts of activities at EDSA Shrine. More activities tomorrow. Residents asking whether they are planning on going.
When my son Nelson was still alive, EDSA was the annual festivity closest to Cubao. We simply walked there. It seems, though, to have metamorphosed over the years. EDSA Day is never the same each year. It is always contingent on who the current President is.
When my son Nelson was still alive, EDSA was the annual festivity closest to Cubao. We simply walked there. It seems, though, to have metamorphosed over the years. EDSA Day is never the same each year. It is always contingent on who the current President is.
Friday, February 23, 2018
My suggestions:
--"Sorry, wrong number. Wala akong anak na atchay."
--"Teka, ano ba ang pangalan MO, at ano ba ang pangalan KO?"
--"Teka, ano ba ang pangalan MO, at ano ba ang pangalan KO?"
--"Ikaw na ang nandiyan, ikaw na ang mag-abono."
--"Mabuti nga sa 'yo. Hindi ka kasi nag-aral magsulat nang matuwid."
--"Maayos pa naman ang mga daliri mong mag-text. Abutin mo ang pitaka mo at bumili ka ng load."
--"Huwag kayong aalis diyan. Papunta na ang mga kamag-anak nating pulis."
--"Sino ang naghi-hit-and-run? Hindi ba IKAW?"
--"Sino ang naghi-hit-and-run? Hindi ba IKAW?"
Thursday, February 22, 2018
Wednesday, February 21, 2018
Fantastic. Three nights ago I tried to help two group members remember their odu. We had to consult two other persons in order to determine what the odu were. I also could not remember my odu and had to Message a woman I hadn't seen in years, just in case she remembered. She did not. Then, two nights later, she remembered, in a dream, not only my odu but her own and another person's.
She Messaged me my odu, and she was right. I read it all over again and recognized my list of prohibitions.
She Messaged me my odu, and she was right. I read it all over again and recognized my list of prohibitions.
The priest became comatose because he angered a parent whose high-school son was kicked out due to new rulings. I offered to heal him, knowing that a black magic spell had been cast on him, but his colleagues didn't take me seriously. I even got the sense that they wanted him to remain indisposed, because they said that they would just leave everything "in the hands of God".
Tuesday, February 20, 2018
Fundamentalists have absolutely no respect for culture and heritage preservation.
First, the missionaries began converting indigenous mountain people and made them get rid of their ancestral objects.
Rather than destroy the objects, the people decided to sell them to antique dealers.
Collectors and home designers then bought these objects from the antique dealers.
Now that they are in different homes, fundamentalists are recommending that the collectors destroy those objects.
I am convinced that the best museums and galleries in the world are those that have no fundamentalists on their staff.
First, the missionaries began converting indigenous mountain people and made them get rid of their ancestral objects.
Rather than destroy the objects, the people decided to sell them to antique dealers.
Collectors and home designers then bought these objects from the antique dealers.
Now that they are in different homes, fundamentalists are recommending that the collectors destroy those objects.
I am convinced that the best museums and galleries in the world are those that have no fundamentalists on their staff.
Your Messenger message:
"Hi Sir Tony,
"...(H)ihingi ng tulong/payo tungkol sa trabaho. "Nakakaramdam po kasi ako ngayon ng lungkot sa trabaho. Parang nawawalan po ng gana o motivation, dagdag pa nito ang pakiramdan na para akong naiwan sa ere para sa isang malaking proyekto. "Ito pong project na ito ay nagsimula last year pa, pero may ilang deliverables po ang pending pa. Tingin ko naman po ay hindi ako nagkukulang para matapos po ito. Masakit lang po isipin na parang naiwan ako sa proyekto nang mag-isa at lahat ng burden at accountability ay nasakin na lang. "Nakadagdag pa po sa iniisip ko ngayon ay yung mga dati kong kasama sa proyekto at katulong para matapos ito ay biglang hindi na kami ok. Biglang hindi na lang po ako kinakausap o iniwasan ako. Kaya po siguro pakiramdam ko ay naiwan ako sa ere. Hindi ko rin po maintindihan kung saan galing ang ganong pag-iwas. Wala naman po kasi kaming alitan bago pa man nangyari iyon. Ang tanging iniisip ko pong dahilan ay baka may kinalaman sa personal na problema ko, na alam din naman nila. "Isa pa po, hindi ko alam kung praning lang ako sa ilan sa mga katrabaho ko ngayon, pero may pakiramdam na para bang nananabotahe sila ng trabaho. At parang may grupo grupo kung saan may target na taong papasaluhin ng lahat ng burden/mali sa trabaho at mapipilitan na lang umalis. Pwede pong mali ako sa naiisip pero para po kasing may pattern. "Hindi ko rin po maintindihan kung may kadikit na negative energy yung project na tinatapos ko dahil andami pong problemang kadikit. Gusto ko na lang po siyang matapos dahil malapit na rin pong umabot ng isang taon mula nung mag umpisa ang project.
"Hi Sir Tony,
"...(H)ihingi ng tulong/payo tungkol sa trabaho. "Nakakaramdam po kasi ako ngayon ng lungkot sa trabaho. Parang nawawalan po ng gana o motivation, dagdag pa nito ang pakiramdan na para akong naiwan sa ere para sa isang malaking proyekto. "Ito pong project na ito ay nagsimula last year pa, pero may ilang deliverables po ang pending pa. Tingin ko naman po ay hindi ako nagkukulang para matapos po ito. Masakit lang po isipin na parang naiwan ako sa proyekto nang mag-isa at lahat ng burden at accountability ay nasakin na lang. "Nakadagdag pa po sa iniisip ko ngayon ay yung mga dati kong kasama sa proyekto at katulong para matapos ito ay biglang hindi na kami ok. Biglang hindi na lang po ako kinakausap o iniwasan ako. Kaya po siguro pakiramdam ko ay naiwan ako sa ere. Hindi ko rin po maintindihan kung saan galing ang ganong pag-iwas. Wala naman po kasi kaming alitan bago pa man nangyari iyon. Ang tanging iniisip ko pong dahilan ay baka may kinalaman sa personal na problema ko, na alam din naman nila. "Isa pa po, hindi ko alam kung praning lang ako sa ilan sa mga katrabaho ko ngayon, pero may pakiramdam na para bang nananabotahe sila ng trabaho. At parang may grupo grupo kung saan may target na taong papasaluhin ng lahat ng burden/mali sa trabaho at mapipilitan na lang umalis. Pwede pong mali ako sa naiisip pero para po kasing may pattern. "Hindi ko rin po maintindihan kung may kadikit na negative energy yung project na tinatapos ko dahil andami pong problemang kadikit. Gusto ko na lang po siyang matapos dahil malapit na rin pong umabot ng isang taon mula nung mag umpisa ang project.
"Gusto ko lang po malaman kung ano pa po ang pwede kong gawin ukol sa mga bagay na ito. Iniisip ko rin po kasi, baka nasakin naman ang problema talaga at wala sa ibang tao. Nang may magawa rin po ako para mapagbuti pa ang bagay bagay. Maraming salamat Sir!"
My reply:
Hello _____________!
Every group project requires teamwork, and the best team members are always those who focus on the project and are able to compartmentalize their personal problems.
Ask yourself: In the group, who is the weakest link? If it is you, then you have to recoup your status and begin pushing forward, rather than bogging down, your group.
Ask yourself: What are your blind spots? No one is perfect, but everyone should be able to identify their blind spots. Look at yourself from the points of view of other people, rather than always from your own.
In a group, there are only two things that you should never allow others to pressure you on:
--Religion
--Economic status
Your Messenger message:
"Hi, sir Tony. Kumusta po? Something came up today and as a person I trust so much, I feel the need to seek advice from you on this matter. While I’m working here in _____ now, I received confirmation of a scholarship offer for me to take up Law. The scholarship offer came from a company (________________________________________) who has been helped by my father (_____________ before his ______________) being their suki land ________ for their properties that time. They have been sponsoring the _________ education of my _______________ and has committed to shoulder her ________ education as well. The condition will be that after my graduation, I will be serving as legal counsel for their firm. Right now I am still confused on whether to take the offer, since I’ve always wanted this since elementary—being a lawyer, or stay where I am now in _____, the latter being the safer choice since there is little to no risk at all. Hoping for enlightenment, sir. I am really confused. Thank you so much for the time spent reading this."
My reply:
Hello ______!
I see you having a better future as a lawyer. You can be a full-time time student during your first two years in law school, then seek a part-time job during the rest of your studies, unless your sponsor provides you a substantial allowance through the time that you pass the bar.
"Hi, sir Tony. Kumusta po? Something came up today and as a person I trust so much, I feel the need to seek advice from you on this matter. While I’m working here in _____ now, I received confirmation of a scholarship offer for me to take up Law. The scholarship offer came from a company (________________________________________) who has been helped by my father (_____________ before his ______________) being their suki land ________ for their properties that time. They have been sponsoring the _________ education of my _______________ and has committed to shoulder her ________ education as well. The condition will be that after my graduation, I will be serving as legal counsel for their firm. Right now I am still confused on whether to take the offer, since I’ve always wanted this since elementary—being a lawyer, or stay where I am now in _____, the latter being the safer choice since there is little to no risk at all. Hoping for enlightenment, sir. I am really confused. Thank you so much for the time spent reading this."
My reply:
Hello ______!
I see you having a better future as a lawyer. You can be a full-time time student during your first two years in law school, then seek a part-time job during the rest of your studies, unless your sponsor provides you a substantial allowance through the time that you pass the bar.
Monday, February 19, 2018
Sunday, February 18, 2018
_Return of the Condor Lovers_ a.k.a. _Return of the Condor Heroes_ (the December 2014 - 2015 version starring Chen Xiao and Michelle Chen) was the wuxia that changed my life forever right before I retired.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adF_ULRCF1Q
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adF_ULRCF1Q
Saturday, February 17, 2018
Friday, February 16, 2018
Thursday, February 15, 2018
Since I graduated from college I'd always wanted to check into a hotel in Lucky Chinatown covering Chinese New Year's Eve, Chinese New Year, and the day after. My plan was to roam the streets at night and have fun.
It never happened, and it never will. I know that I would feel very uncomfortable not being able to speak Hokkien.
It never happened, and it never will. I know that I would feel very uncomfortable not being able to speak Hokkien.
Danny Pino is a fine performer who deserves all the roles he can get. It was only in Law & Order: SVU, however, where he achieved great depth of character, perhaps due to skilled writers, directors, and camerapersons. Other shows seem to treat him merely as a supporting actor left to fend for himself, and he often falls back on tired mannerisms. Someone should care enough to direct him.
Wednesday, February 14, 2018
B., a former classmate in grade school, high school, and college, visited me today. There was something he needed from me. This was the first time I saw him in maybe 25 or 30 years. I thought that I would be annoyed because he was taking time I should have been spending painting, but, I was wrong. I enjoyed his company immensely. It was like having my own brother come over. We had a pleasant conversation, during which I felt comfortable just being myself and not having to explain anything to him.
Tuesday, February 13, 2018
A Happy Valentine's Day to my Friends!
Sometimes my messages in bottles remain inside the bottles and are discovered not in this lifetime but in the next one, and the next one, and the next one, by people who haven't been born yet and people I will never, personally know, but they will be people who will fall in love with me and wonder who I really was, how I looked like, and how I lived.
Monday, February 12, 2018
Sunday, February 11, 2018
I find Ellen's Game of Games interesting from a psychoanalytical point of view. Most of the games end up with people being pulled up, hung, dropped, squirted on, smeared, spun, and subjected to mechanisms that seem to represent giant penises or the giant arms of overwhelming parents. A very Freudian show, actually. Even the collective squeals of the audience come across to me as having a covertly sexual, sadomasochistic tone.
Artist Brenda Fajardo had an elder brother--I forget his name--who himself taught art when I was in third grade. I recall one of his lessons, which was to render a round vase with charcoal on drawing paper. It was really a lesson in tone, shadows, turning edges, highlights, and bounced lighting. I remember that I did a lousy job and managed only to get my hands and fingers terribly smudged with charcoal. I also remember that he held up the work of one of my classmates--I also forget who it was--and praised it to high heaven. I thought that I would like my work to be as good as my classmate's someday. To this day, though, I have tried different types of media and I detest charcoal most.
Saturday, February 10, 2018
Watched Loving Vincent, which my sister Sylvia brought me from Australia. The title is derived from "Your loving Vincent", by which Van Gogh signed his letters. It is a 100% "handpainted" movie, with flashbacks in black and white.
A year after Van Gogh's death the postmaster Roulin sends his son Armand to deliver an undelivered letter Van Gogh had written to his brother Theo, not to Theo, who in the movie has also passed away, but to Theo's widow. Armand searches for the most trustworthy person to send the letter overseas, in the process interviewing the people who surrounded Vincent during his final days and indirectly investigating the circumstances of his death.
The movie suffers from a weak point of attack and a weak premise. Armand is as much a protagonist as Van Gogh is, yet he undergoes no dramatic change at the end of the movie. Moreover, the end titles are accompanied by American Pie's "Starry Starry Night"--sung not by a man but by a woman, which somehow made me think that this song was the original inspiration for the conception of the movie.
During my viewing I encountered the following visual problems:
--The painted flashbacks are like grisailles, which van Gogh never employed in his paintings, and they are executed with softer brushwork, sometimes seemingly simulating charcoal drawings, quite un-Van-Gogh-like and making them come across, at times, as illustrations for the old Ideals magazine.
--Despite the simulation of some of Van Gogh's interiors and exteriors, the composition of the shots is for the movie screen rather than for the canvas, using extreme close-ups, high angles, and low angles.
--The movie was evidently shot with real characters against real sets and afterward "painted over", resulting in being artistically unimpressive. As a matter of fact, there are moments when the photography rather than the brushwork dominates.
The only reason I could fully appreciate this movie and stayed through its end was that I actually have the huge book Vincent by Himself: A Selection of Van Gogh's Paintings and Drawings Together with Extracts from His Letters (edited by Bruce Bernard) and had watched, a few years back, the 1956 movie Lust for Life by Vincente Minnelli, which explored the very same characters and scenes (and which I felt was more difficult to execute yet was more successful despite the fact that it employed a lot less artists). Over all, Loving Vincent is too much about loneliness, and could be difficult viewing for the average person, especially since the heavy impasto becomes tedious after the first half of the movie.
A year after Van Gogh's death the postmaster Roulin sends his son Armand to deliver an undelivered letter Van Gogh had written to his brother Theo, not to Theo, who in the movie has also passed away, but to Theo's widow. Armand searches for the most trustworthy person to send the letter overseas, in the process interviewing the people who surrounded Vincent during his final days and indirectly investigating the circumstances of his death.
The movie suffers from a weak point of attack and a weak premise. Armand is as much a protagonist as Van Gogh is, yet he undergoes no dramatic change at the end of the movie. Moreover, the end titles are accompanied by American Pie's "Starry Starry Night"--sung not by a man but by a woman, which somehow made me think that this song was the original inspiration for the conception of the movie.
During my viewing I encountered the following visual problems:
--The painted flashbacks are like grisailles, which van Gogh never employed in his paintings, and they are executed with softer brushwork, sometimes seemingly simulating charcoal drawings, quite un-Van-Gogh-like and making them come across, at times, as illustrations for the old Ideals magazine.
--Despite the simulation of some of Van Gogh's interiors and exteriors, the composition of the shots is for the movie screen rather than for the canvas, using extreme close-ups, high angles, and low angles.
--The movie was evidently shot with real characters against real sets and afterward "painted over", resulting in being artistically unimpressive. As a matter of fact, there are moments when the photography rather than the brushwork dominates.
The only reason I could fully appreciate this movie and stayed through its end was that I actually have the huge book Vincent by Himself: A Selection of Van Gogh's Paintings and Drawings Together with Extracts from His Letters (edited by Bruce Bernard) and had watched, a few years back, the 1956 movie Lust for Life by Vincente Minnelli, which explored the very same characters and scenes (and which I felt was more difficult to execute yet was more successful despite the fact that it employed a lot less artists). Over all, Loving Vincent is too much about loneliness, and could be difficult viewing for the average person, especially since the heavy impasto becomes tedious after the first half of the movie.
Your Messenger message:
"Good afternoon, Sir Tony. I am sorry if I am bothering you with my personal issue. If it is okay, I want to ask for your advice as I am to make a major life decision. I recently got a job offer to which I am really excited to apply for. But of course, not without any compromise. Both of my parents are against it. They want me to finish law school but my heart is not in it. I realized that since early last year but I kept going as I do not know, personally, which way to go in the professional field. Also, I do not want to disappoint my parents time and again. As for the moment, I am just waiting for the employer's reply to my message. Thank you for your time. God bless."
My reply:
Hello __________!
Try to finish the semester, then talk with your parents. Tell them that you would like to have a change by having some work experience, and that you will go back to your law studies when you are ready to enroll again. And, you will be.
"Good afternoon, Sir Tony. I am sorry if I am bothering you with my personal issue. If it is okay, I want to ask for your advice as I am to make a major life decision. I recently got a job offer to which I am really excited to apply for. But of course, not without any compromise. Both of my parents are against it. They want me to finish law school but my heart is not in it. I realized that since early last year but I kept going as I do not know, personally, which way to go in the professional field. Also, I do not want to disappoint my parents time and again. As for the moment, I am just waiting for the employer's reply to my message. Thank you for your time. God bless."
My reply:
Hello __________!
Try to finish the semester, then talk with your parents. Tell them that you would like to have a change by having some work experience, and that you will go back to your law studies when you are ready to enroll again. And, you will be.
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