This electronic diary is continued on Tony Perez's Electronic Diary (May 15, 2018 - ), on tonyperezphilippinescyberspacebook40.blogspot.com. Kindly proceed there for the continuation of this cyberspace book.
Continued from tonyperezphilippinescyberspacebook36.blogspot.com.
Tuesday, May 15, 2018
Monday, May 14, 2018
Sunday, May 13, 2018
Fredo, who used to work at Miranda's Cove (circa 2002), his wife, two kids, and brother Nino arrived from their hometown to bring Nino to work at Lelyn's store. They'd had lunch, so I gave them dessert, brought them to Lelyn's store, and afterward to Lelyn's mother's store. Quite a production number; the little boy's diaper had to be changed in my bathroom.
The house is no longer what it was in 2002, and I had difficulty envisioning how Fredo remembered it to be.
The house is no longer what it was in 2002, and I had difficulty envisioning how Fredo remembered it to be.
Humility allows you to accept things as they are, and therefore let things be. One cannot be humble if one wants to introduce changes and challenges to one's self and to the world.
Humility is demanded by a commander, of his soldiers. By a corporate head, of his subordinates. By a religious leader, of his followers.
Yet, a true artist cannot be humble on others' orders. He is an individualist, and does not conform even to his individualist peers.
No cultural and artistic revolutions are ever the result of humility.
Humility is demanded by a commander, of his soldiers. By a corporate head, of his subordinates. By a religious leader, of his followers.
Yet, a true artist cannot be humble on others' orders. He is an individualist, and does not conform even to his individualist peers.
No cultural and artistic revolutions are ever the result of humility.
Saturday, May 12, 2018
Aside from my week-long playwriting workshop "From Dreams To Drama" (incorporating exercises in dreamwork and dream analysis) for TheatreWorks Singapore, I am conducting one, half-day workshop for prospective participants of the 24-Hour Playwriting Competition.
The half-day workshop will be held at historic Haw Par Village. (I can't upload load the photos but I love those pieces of sculpture depicting the Taoist hells; they seem to be all over the place!)
I would invite my Filipino friends who are interested in playwriting to sign up for "From Dreams to Drama", but the registration fee is quite pricey--I think, but I am not sure, between $600 - $900, and they have to pay for their own return air tickets, accommodations, and food, on top of that.
The half-day workshop will be held at historic Haw Par Village. (I can't upload load the photos but I love those pieces of sculpture depicting the Taoist hells; they seem to be all over the place!)
I would invite my Filipino friends who are interested in playwriting to sign up for "From Dreams to Drama", but the registration fee is quite pricey--I think, but I am not sure, between $600 - $900, and they have to pay for their own return air tickets, accommodations, and food, on top of that.
Friday, May 11, 2018
Lunch at home with Aubrey. She is now going to a mall to meet R. and buy a pair of shoes and a thermos. Angelique at college, but J. and she will have lunch at home in two hours. CatCat and Ashraf back in Divisoria doing more shopping. All of them going to the airport this afternoon, after which Angelique, Aubrey, J., and R. are having dinner out.
As for myself, staying home painting. One of the paintings will be finished very soon.
As for myself, staying home painting. One of the paintings will be finished very soon.
Thursday, May 10, 2018
Your Messenger message:
"sir tony magandang gabi. ano pong ibigsabihin po ng dalawang guinea pigs sa panaginip kp. nagulat po ako at nagising ako na nasa kama ko yung isa walang balahibo sa may leeg. yung isa naman po sobrang laki (taba). ang pakiramdam ko po sa panaginip ko ay nag panic ako dahil nakawala po sa cage. not sure po kung natakot ako. salamat po"
My reply:
Hello ______!
Both guinea pigs signify that, at this point in your life, you are looking at the wrong choices and the wrong options.
It is possible that you are making career decisions via trial and error and are committing more errors. Always think ten steps in advance, plan everything, and have good, interpersonal relationships with your co-workers--at least, until after you retire, when you then may be as vicious as you like toward them.
"sir tony magandang gabi. ano pong ibigsabihin po ng dalawang guinea pigs sa panaginip kp. nagulat po ako at nagising ako na nasa kama ko yung isa walang balahibo sa may leeg. yung isa naman po sobrang laki (taba). ang pakiramdam ko po sa panaginip ko ay nag panic ako dahil nakawala po sa cage. not sure po kung natakot ako. salamat po"
My reply:
Hello ______!
Both guinea pigs signify that, at this point in your life, you are looking at the wrong choices and the wrong options.
It is possible that you are making career decisions via trial and error and are committing more errors. Always think ten steps in advance, plan everything, and have good, interpersonal relationships with your co-workers--at least, until after you retire, when you then may be as vicious as you like toward them.
Dinner at home with Angelique and J., then Aubrey woke up from her nap and had dinner too.
Ordered a dish from the cafe. The new, young waitress (who had never been inside the house till then) served it through the secret passage and was blown away by my paintings. She stayed and watched me paint for a while.
Ordered a dish from the cafe. The new, young waitress (who had never been inside the house till then) served it through the secret passage and was blown away by my paintings. She stayed and watched me paint for a while.
Wednesday, May 9, 2018
Worked an hour on fortieth glaze on one painting.
Painted till midnight tonight. The living room is now--albeit temporarily--filled with seven, finished oil paintings propped up on chairs, there is one unfinished painting on one easel and a canvas awaiting underpainting on a second easel, and after that one more canvas in storage needs to be worked on for a total of ten paintings.
Working like the Vampire Marius, but loving it.
Painted till midnight tonight. The living room is now--albeit temporarily--filled with seven, finished oil paintings propped up on chairs, there is one unfinished painting on one easel and a canvas awaiting underpainting on a second easel, and after that one more canvas in storage needs to be worked on for a total of ten paintings.
Working like the Vampire Marius, but loving it.
Tuesday, May 8, 2018
Your Messenger message:
"Hi, Sir Tony! I need your advice. I was attracted to this painting and took it but when I brought it to my apartment my landlady was adamant about having paintings at home for fear of the energy it might bring. You think I should keep this or put it away? Looking forward to hear from you. Thank you very much."
My reply:
Hello _____!
The painting is quite pretty. Your landlady is quirky--this is the first time I heard about paintings being prevented from installation in a rented house.
But, she is the landlady after all. Just wrap the painting and wait until you can move into your own property. Save up for it and do it. There is no other freedom like living in a place you own.
"Hi, Sir Tony! I need your advice. I was attracted to this painting and took it but when I brought it to my apartment my landlady was adamant about having paintings at home for fear of the energy it might bring. You think I should keep this or put it away? Looking forward to hear from you. Thank you very much."
My reply:
Hello _____!
The painting is quite pretty. Your landlady is quirky--this is the first time I heard about paintings being prevented from installation in a rented house.
But, she is the landlady after all. Just wrap the painting and wait until you can move into your own property. Save up for it and do it. There is no other freedom like living in a place you own.
Monday, May 7, 2018
Sunday, May 6, 2018
Your Messenger message:
"Sir Tony pede po ba...mgpa interpret po ng dreams ko...? Sir I had a dream na asa kitchen ako then nkita ko ung pinto sa itaas na bahagi ng lababo inayat ko ito sa panaginip ko, ng sinilip ko ung ng pinto ko ng likod ng kitchen nung una dko mamukhaan kung cno yung anino n nakatingin sken ng titigan ko cxa mabuti nkita ko ung lola ng classmate mo (kmaganak nmin cxa, when I was young u always ask her hand pra magbless) nakatingin cxa sken n sa kabilang bakuran, nkangiti lumabas ako ng pinto at cnb ko "lola mgbbless po ako"sa halip n iabot nya kmay nya sa my bakod lumapit cxa, tumawid cxa pra makapgmano ako. Bago cxa nkalapit my aso sa harapan nya nkatali ngworry ako n bka mkagat cxa pero dinaanan nya lng yung aso at umupo cxa s harapan ko at ngmano ako. Tas sb ko daw s kanya my kukunin lang ako saglit s loob ng bhay ,nakangiti cxa sken at inaantay nya ibbgay ko. Tas ng baba nko s baba s pinto kitchen n mataas nkita ko yung tubo umaagos n color brown dko alam kung ano un. Dun po nputol pnaginip ko. I also wondering s panaginip ko umayat ako sa may lababo pra mkarating s pinto ng likod bhay nmin which is hindi normal style ng bhay na sa halip n cabinet s my taas ng lababo pinto ang asa pnaginip ko. Plus that lola is mtanda n nung bata pko at patay n cxa."
My reply:
Please send me this in straight Tagalog.
"Sir Tony pede po ba...mgpa interpret po ng dreams ko...? Sir I had a dream na asa kitchen ako then nkita ko ung pinto sa itaas na bahagi ng lababo inayat ko ito sa panaginip ko, ng sinilip ko ung ng pinto ko ng likod ng kitchen nung una dko mamukhaan kung cno yung anino n nakatingin sken ng titigan ko cxa mabuti nkita ko ung lola ng classmate mo (kmaganak nmin cxa, when I was young u always ask her hand pra magbless) nakatingin cxa sken n sa kabilang bakuran, nkangiti lumabas ako ng pinto at cnb ko "lola mgbbless po ako"sa halip n iabot nya kmay nya sa my bakod lumapit cxa, tumawid cxa pra makapgmano ako. Bago cxa nkalapit my aso sa harapan nya nkatali ngworry ako n bka mkagat cxa pero dinaanan nya lng yung aso at umupo cxa s harapan ko at ngmano ako. Tas sb ko daw s kanya my kukunin lang ako saglit s loob ng bhay ,nakangiti cxa sken at inaantay nya ibbgay ko. Tas ng baba nko s baba s pinto kitchen n mataas nkita ko yung tubo umaagos n color brown dko alam kung ano un. Dun po nputol pnaginip ko. I also wondering s panaginip ko umayat ako sa may lababo pra mkarating s pinto ng likod bhay nmin which is hindi normal style ng bhay na sa halip n cabinet s my taas ng lababo pinto ang asa pnaginip ko. Plus that lola is mtanda n nung bata pko at patay n cxa."
My reply:
Please send me this in straight Tagalog.
Your e-mail message:
"Dear Sir Tony,
"Dear Sir Tony,
"Good Morning. Sharing with you my dream yesterday.
"In my dream, i was with my mom and sister in our house (although the house doesn't resemble our current home). it was a bit dark, parang blackout. then kailangan ko magcharge ng phone. may available sa malapit na poste ng bahay pero nung sinaksak ko parang nag short circuit. so i went to an open dark room where the phone of my mom is charging. tinanggal nya with ease yung phone nya para ako naman makapagcharge. nung ako na yung magcharge may nakaharang na aparador tapos parang bigla lumayo yung socket. di ko maabot para magcharge. for some reason di ko sinubukan na iipod yung aparador. then binuksan ng nanay ko ilaw ng kwarto. inipod ko yung aparador. pero bigla ako natakot pumasok sa room. kaya lumapit ako sa nanay ko para magpasama sa loob ng kwarto.
"Ragards,
"_________________"
My reply:
Hello _______________!
It is possible that you are fantasizing about entering an illicit relationship with a woman. Your family values (mother and sister) are preventing you from doing so. So is your psyche, since you are unable to insert the plug into the socket.
In this dream, light represents realization and insight. Your house does not resemble your current home because it implies a major change that you are not ready for.
Does the armoire have a mirror? If it does, it behooves you to look upon your own reflection in it.
Your Messenger message:
"Good afternoon po. Thanks again for... I would also like to ask for your help with my family. They had a blow out yesterday and it's because of my younger brother. I really think he has mental issues but I don't know how to make him to seek treatment other than asking him. He is verbally and emotionally abusive to my parents and his wife and kids. He is now separated but sees his children regularly. I have messaged him and tried consoling my parents. I don't know what else to do after that other than pray for them and ask my spirit guides to assist us. For episodes like this, is action always required or should we just watch, let it unfold and accept that this is necessary like payment for karmic debt for the people involved?"
My reply:
Hello _____!
Do your best. You are also a karmic player. Guide him and allow him to mature. It's like taking care of a delicate plant.
Yes, we are not only stewards of the earth. We are also our brothers' keepers.
"Good afternoon po. Thanks again for... I would also like to ask for your help with my family. They had a blow out yesterday and it's because of my younger brother. I really think he has mental issues but I don't know how to make him to seek treatment other than asking him. He is verbally and emotionally abusive to my parents and his wife and kids. He is now separated but sees his children regularly. I have messaged him and tried consoling my parents. I don't know what else to do after that other than pray for them and ask my spirit guides to assist us. For episodes like this, is action always required or should we just watch, let it unfold and accept that this is necessary like payment for karmic debt for the people involved?"
My reply:
Hello _____!
Do your best. You are also a karmic player. Guide him and allow him to mature. It's like taking care of a delicate plant.
Yes, we are not only stewards of the earth. We are also our brothers' keepers.
Dinner at M.'s cafe with Angelique and Aubrey. Angelique tried the sizzling pork, I tried the sizzling tuna, and Aubrey had the barbecued buffalo wings as usual.
I also tried the nutella shake, which was good.
I'm so full I can't do any more painting tonight. Will just snuggle up in bed with The Cat Who Said Cheese.
I also tried the nutella shake, which was good.
I'm so full I can't do any more painting tonight. Will just snuggle up in bed with The Cat Who Said Cheese.
Saturday, May 5, 2018
Lunch at the center with Angelique and Aubrey. Then Aubrey did some minor groceries, after which I dropped the two at a coffee shop where they will be studying through the afternoon.
Back home, CatCat and Ashraf arrived from Masantol, where CatCat introduced Ashraf to her relatives. They left after a few minutes to go to Divisoria.
Back home, CatCat and Ashraf arrived from Masantol, where CatCat introduced Ashraf to her relatives. They left after a few minutes to go to Divisoria.
Going to bed with the satisfied feeling of now having six new paintings for the prospective exhibit for the 50th Year of the 4-F Elans. I pledged eight to my co-alumni, but I think I can produce ten.
If this event doesn't happen (after all, it was already cancelled once), I can always exhibit the paintings on my own for a period of three to five days (I refuse to handle the stress of anything more than that).
If this event doesn't happen (after all, it was already cancelled once), I can always exhibit the paintings on my own for a period of three to five days (I refuse to handle the stress of anything more than that).
Friday, May 4, 2018
Thursday, May 3, 2018
Decades ago, one of my Clinical Psychology professors was fond of alarming her students by pointing out their slurs, slips of the tongue, and behavioral quirks as possible indications of brain lesions.
I wonder where she is now. She seems to have disappeared into nowhere, like many full-time professors who retire and who are nothing else.
She must have finally fallen into the quicksand of her brain damage research.
I wonder where she is now. She seems to have disappeared into nowhere, like many full-time professors who retire and who are nothing else.
She must have finally fallen into the quicksand of her brain damage research.
Wednesday, May 2, 2018
Loving this antique, bronze cross that Regina gave me for my birthday. Its provenance is Imperial Russian circa late 18th - 19th century. Known as a "male cross" and an "Old Believers'" cross, it has King David's Psalm 68: 1-2 inscribed in Cyrillic on the back:
"Do something, God!
Scatter your hateful enemies.
Make them turn and run.
Scatter them like smoke!
When you come near, make them melt like wax in a fire."
Tuesday, May 1, 2018
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